B.F.F.

I wake up early....Well not that early but earlier than my friends. So I sit in my bed for about 15 minutes contemplating what to do. I am such a loner. Then I decide to write a blog and not call anyone because my blog is my best friend. Hehe... Pathetic loser is all I gotta say to that.

Today I would like to go to the pool and get a nice tan. Speaking of getting a tan. I saw the most beautiful child yesterday. This is little girl with big blue eyes and blond hair. She was so cute and she kept staring at me. I was looking at her blond hair and blue eyes with amazement and she must have been looking at my darkness and thinking wow she is all brown. Well sorta.

I have nothing good to say except little things make me mad. Like, being late to places. I dunno there is so much in my mind but they are so little that I feel like I am going crazy. So my boyfriend made me upset. But it is so little I don't think I should even think about it. I don't get it. If I were to tell him that something little made me upset he would be like "wtf?". Anyways, but in my world of messed up"ness" little things count.

Okay I think I want to go to UCD. It might sound stupid but I have my reasons. I mean why go to CU Boulder if I am going to go to medical school. I don't get it. I have to figure my crap out.

So today, I would like to go to the pool with Y. But I don't think he will have time or even want to go. So should I go before he wakes up or should I wait for him to wake up and ask him if he would like to go with me......