Don't cry shopgirl

Probably one of the best movies made is You've Got Mail. It is about two people who find each other in the mist of a battle. So opposite yet so compatible. Couple months ago a person asked me if I had found my NY152 and I said.... Yes after a long pause. I don't know why I paused. But I am not going to contemplate over it.

What I hate the most is giving movies ridicilous titles. Titles such as "chick flick". Many might say that You've Got Mail is the epitome of chick flick. Well, I disagree. I think it is a good movie. A common misconception comes with a movie slapped with a title of a chick flick.... that it is a bad movie. I personally prefer the title Romantic Comedy... It fits the movie better. Although I cry everytime in the end when Tom Hanks wipes the tears off of Meg Ryans face and says "don't cry shopgirl", what a great line!

Today I did my nails. I never do my nails. I have been thinking, this is the time for me to be more feminine. I want to wear summer dresses, have curly hair and french manicured nails. Whatever happened to being feminine. I mean, I am so sick of wearing jeans and a shirt. I want to show my bubbly personality through the clothing I wear.. sometimes a smile is not enough.

I have been thinking for the past couple of days. I feel good. Today I woke up with a burst of good feeling. And I havent had that feeling in a long time. I have been thinking good things, things that will get me through life happily and bubbly. Bubbly is a cute word although a more meaningful word can be substituted. I have been thinking about where I stand and who I am becoming and where I am going... believe it or not I am happy. I love this unclear path that I am on. Unclear and unexpected is good. Not knowing what will happen this second, the next day, next month.... next ten years... it feels good. I love it. Right now is all that matters and the way I look at it is you can't have a really good moment and let it go down the drain next. Good things are followed after other good things. I mean thats just how life is. Lead a happy life now, make good decisions now, and you will be happy with the results later. Therefore this whole cycle of goodness comes your way...

I mean I love it. I love how we are this instant. If I make the best of today today it is simple as making the next day best as well... I don't know if that makes any sense. It made alot of sense in my head... and not knowing is good.

Laura's party is today and I am so EXCITED! One more day I get to spend with the man I love and the friends that are so close and dear to my heart. What a great day.