It has been a long time

Wow, the last time I blogged was before I went to Turkey. I cannot believe I didn't update for so long.

Turkey.....

Hehe, not much to say about Turkey. I was there for exactly 4 weeks. And no one really missed me much. I thought I missed everyone and I thought wrong. Since I have been back, I really did nothing except to hang out with Emily.

A wise male once said to me "you are like a kid, you trust everyone" he added "grow up and don't trust anyone". That is true. I need to grow up. And yes, I do trust everybody. I do love everyone. It might be the culture difference but people freak out when they hear the word love. I think it's just care on another level, on a higher level that is. I mean I love my friends, my true friends, that just means that I care for them so much I could die for them. It's not like I get butterflies in my stomach when I see them. And that is a dumb way to describe the feeling of love. It is just rush of emotions or release of chemicals:) I am just kidding. Actually I believe love is the closest thing we have to magic. I read this somewhere, some women actually cry when they have sex. During sex women release emotions that makes them really vulnerable and emotional ( lack of better words). That is why women emotionally get attached to their partner. It is unbelievable how women are, they are just plain crazy:-)

Anyways, I took my friend to this crazy guy. Who supposedly does healings to crazy girls. Hehe, no offense. So if you are feeling down he takes away the negative energy in you and instead gives you positive energy that leaves you with nothing but happy thoughts. So it is kind of like meditating, he relaxes your mind and your muscles. He held my friend's hand and told her to relax during their session. After that he did the same thing for me. Although I just went with her, not about to pay 40 dollars for some bullshit deal. Anyways I felt nothing during our session. And my friend was amazed and she felt really good afterwards. The crazy guy told me that I must not have any negative energy to release and he added "I guess you are just really relaxed and happy as it is".

I am sitting here, really happy and relaxed with my nails done, not much of a care in the world except to contemplate what I am doing tonight. And it feels good.