Saturday morning!

What an obvious title. Saturday mornings are my favorite now. I don't have to wake up 4:00 in the morning. It just woke up about 3 minutes ago. I feel amazing. You know sometimes I have so much to say and the right words never come out. So I decided to say less... Maybe that is the reason I have not been updating so much.

I am really excited because my brother is coming to see me May 10th. He said he missed me. I miss him just as much if not more. Why do I attach myself to people like this? I should be the only one who controls my feelings but now it seems like I have no control in my life. I don't know if I like this. It seems like I never know what's going to happen because I don't have say in anything....

I am in shock. People care for me. Unbelievable. They really do. My mother really cares for me although she sucks at showing it. Almost everyone sucks at making me feel loved. But it's okay. Because I learned to deal with it. Deep inside I know people and how they feel even if they treat me badly.

All my life, I had to deal with people. I just kind of brushed it off. But I was spoiled for 9 months. For the first time in my life. Hehe, what a selfish thing to say, but I am not spoiled anymore. Welcome to the real world.

I know this is how everything will be like. Get used to it. I have been hearing this alot. Good things come out of bad things so nothing is ever bad. Life loves me even if no one else does.

I don't know how I put myself in such a mood in less then 3 minutes. I love everything. I am so excited for the next 12 or 13 hours. I love it. I love this. I love myself and I don't want to die:)