Blank But Not Really

Earlier today I talked to my cousin. He lost alot of weight. He is really stressed out. I told him to take care of himself. I am sure he will be fine.

This was hard. I have been trying to write a blog since like 6:00 PM today. Nothing has been coming to me. I have stared at this blank page. Nothing came out so I went and watched TV and then I feel asleep for a little bit. I woke up at 12:00 and then nothing came out again. I was texting Daryl and I called him. Probably the best conversation I have had so far this week.

"Love is blessing when you are with him but it is a burden when you are not" he said. Exact quote. He said "pain and healing is a process, you can't expect to feel better all of a sudden". That boy is a hopeless romantic. He really is. Daryl listened to me and he thinks I have every right to hate him for what he did to us. I don't even know why he lied. But Daryl and I talked about a few possible reasons why he did lie. He told me some stuff that broke my heart even more. Today was madness, I dunno how to deal with all this information. But it is almost 5:00 in the morning. I should go to sleep.

I hate writing short blogs when I have so much going on in my head. But I don't think I can write enough about all my thoughts. I'm excited about the museum tomorow. Dead bodies and stuff. CRAZY! Germans are mad. Hehe.

Goodnight...