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Wow, I really have nothing to write about. I have been staring into blankness for about ten minutes now. And I have nothing to say.

Gokyuzunde yalniz gezen yildizlar
Yeryuzunde sizin kadar yalnizim
Bir haykirsam bekli duyulur sesim
Ben yalnizim, ben yalnizim, yalnizim

This was for my cousin:)
I think I can just talk about nothing for hours. But I rather not. I am kind of emotionless right now. Must be because of last night. It sucks when your boyfriend wants to yell at you when you are all drugged up. You make no sense. I hate taking those medicines. I hate them so much. But I feel so much better once I do take them.
Family status is a little out of control for now. But I'm trying to manage it. I miss my brother alot. Money is kind of a problem right now. It's all good though. My mom bought a fan today. Our house is burning hot. This fan is amazing. I'm going to buy a new bikini tomorow. Am I being random? Doesn't matter. Today I went to my ex boss' house. It was fun. We sat and talked and ate cherez. It reminded me of old days. It was fun.
I get sentimental just thinking about Turkey, and Turkish customs, and how we used to do things. I miss everything. I miss Istanbul so much. You know I hate being here. I love Istanbul. I haven't seen it for 5 years.
And I hate war so much. I wish US would get out of Iraq. I hate this so much. It makes me wanna cry whenever I hear something about it. I love our muslim brothers. And they are suffering so much. I wish I could do something about it. After all, I have no power. All my life I believed that one person could make a difference in the world. At this moment, I dont really think so. I wish I could stop the Isreali-Palestine issue. But I cant. I just don't understand sometimes.
I think I'm done for now. I'm just really sad now. The world needs fixing.