I know I know I know

You plead with me, shout, scream, tell me I'm staying
I know I know I know, I'm still your love
Back from the last place that I wanted to fake you
Laugh with me, shout, scream now tell me you're staying
I know I know I know, you're still my love
The same as I love you, you'll always love me too
This love isn't good unless it's me and you
Box after box and you're still by my side
The weather is changing and breaking my stride
I know I know I know, it's just this day

I didn't understand this song just yesterday. It just was so confusing for some reason. But now, I get it. It's not because I read, or study, or still waste my time going school. I get it now because of life experience. I say fuck school, people simply learn by interacting with each other. And sometimes you think you know. But you don't know. I don't know anything. I was sure of one thing, but now nothing. I got nothing. I love music. My heart aches. My head kinda hurts. I dunno what to do. I am just so confused. I feel like a kid on christmas who just found out there is no santa and her parents have been putting the gifts under the tree for years and years. You know how you always knew in the back of your head that santa doesn't exist.... but you never really wanted to believe it. That's me. I am that kid.

Now my spirit and my heart are broken. I dunno what to do to fix it. I don't know.