I never thought that doing the same exact routine with a different mind set and emotions would be so hard. I woke up early like I do every Monday, I took a shower and went to my meeting. I do not think that my mind was able to observe the outside world until about 12:00. I blocked everything out for about 4 hours. Now that I think about it, that sounds crazy. It helped to think through things and get my mind straight. I spoke with Taifur today. It felt good to talk to someone who has a positive outlook on life. Sometimes I need some help finding that little happiness. Although most of the time I am good at it but today or the past couple days have not been the best days of my life. I must admit I have been getting better at it though. I just get sad when I am by myself. It's always very hard to fall asleep or be alone when mixed up in emotions. Anyways, Taifur what a great guy. I never knew before.

Rest of my day I just thought about how much stupider can people get. I have this friend whom I think is dumb as a brick. It's a mean statement but honestly she is. I was trying to engage in a somewhat of a casual conversation with her by asking her how her weekend was. She replied with the stupidest thing I have ever heard. She said,
"My weekend was great, I broke up with my boyfriend. He got a stupid hair cut and his hair was so short that I just had to end it. He looked ugly."
Damn, how shallow can one get? What do people think? It feels great to know that our intricate relationships with people and loved ones hang on by such a thin thread called looks or something stupider (lack of better words). Anyways, my rant on women who are not very intelligent... not very interesting... Now, I got to do more work and more work and possible kill myself after Thursday. Although I might refrain from doing that because I am afraid my hell would only consist of doing Chemistry and Physics for the rest of eternity... That does not sound appealing.