WTF?

I thought alot today, tonight. I came up with solid ideas and thoughts. I wrote them all down. I want to say them and get it over with.

You see, that is the difference between a girl and a guy. When a girl thinks she actually comes up with shit to say. Unfortunately, a guy can't get nowhere with his thoughts. I have been stuck in this place for almost a month. It's been shitty. I have tried taking time off, I have tried crying, whining, begging, making pointless, meaningless promises.... they meant alot to me but not to him.... But now I have solid suggestions.... Solid questions. I don't see myself stuck here anymore. Once you have hit rock bottom the only way is up... I know I can't go any lower. So, something good has to come of it. But if nothing happens.... nothing happens... if something happens then it happens. I guess it was meant for us to be this way. I have always thought that you make your future. You can't let things be. You have to push in order to get something out of it. But it seems like right now, he doesn't want to push... You can't force someone to do something they don't want to do. Relationships are about compromises... I'm willing to put in my best effort, but I also realize one person can't make that difference. If he is not willing to do anything, we are still going to be stuck here. So I need to talk to him....